A LOOK FROM CHRIST
by Octavius Winslow
from his book MIDNIGHT HARMONIES

The Lord turned and looked upon Peter. Luke 22 verse 61. And who can fully interpret that look? Painters have often attempted to portray it, but the pencil has fallen despairingly from their hands.

The Saviour was now standing face to face with Caiaphas, infinite purity confronting sin, infinite truth confounding error. It was to him a solemn and critical moment. Pleading for his life, all his thoughts and sympathies and moments might be supposed to concentrate wholly upon himself.

But no, he heard a voice behind him. the tones of which were familiar, though startling, to his ear. It was a voice to which he had often listened, as the ear listens to sweet sounds. But dear and familiar as it was, it uttered words of appalling import. It was the voice of a loved disciple, a sworn friend, who, but a few hours before, had vowed, with all the solemnity and emphasis of an oath, attachment and fidelity unto death.

And what was its affirmation? I know not the man. His attention diverted from the trial, and his eye withdrawn from his accusers, the Lord turned and looked upon Peter. All thought and emotion seemed now to gather around one object, the Christ-denying disciple. His own personal case, now fraught with the deepest interest and peril, the tremendous responsibility which he at that moment sustained, standing on the eve of accomplishing the eternal purpose of his Father in the redemption of his Church, the woe through which he was about to pass lowering and darkening around him.

Yet all seemed for the moment to tremble in the balance before the case of a now-fallen apostle. And the Lord turned and looked upon Peter.

Peter met the glance. Not a word was uttered, not a syllable was breathed, not a finger was lifted by the Saviour. It was but a look. And yet It was such a look as pierced the heart of the sinning apostle. Peter went out and wept bitterly.

Let us attempt its interpretation. The eye of Jesus is still upon us. It has often reproved us in our waywardness and folly. It has often cheered us in our loneliness and sorrow. and it may often chide and gladden us again. What is its language?

It was a look of injured love. Christ loved Peter. He loved him with an everlasting love. When he allured him from his lowly calling, summoned him to be a disciple, and ordained him to be an apostle and a fisher of men, he loved him. Yes, and he loved him, too, at that moment. He was about to die. To die for Peter! He knew how false and treacherous he would prove, how, at a most critical period of his life, and amid circumstances the most painful, he would deny that he knew him, confirming the disownment with an oath and a curse.

Yet Christ loved Peter. loved him with an affection that never faltered or cooled. No, not even at the moment when the denial and the imprecation rose, fiend-like, from his lips. What, then, was the language of that look which Christ now bent upon Peter? It was a look of injured love. It seemed to say, I am about to die for you, And can you now deny me? What have I done, or what have I said, worthy of such requital? And what are all our backslidings and falls, and unkind returns, but so many unjust injuries done to the deep, deathless love of Jesus?

How do we forget? at the moment of excited feeling, that every step we take in departure from God, each temptation to which we yield, assent, and each sin we voluntarily commit, is in the face of love inconceivably great, and unutterably tender. Injured love, how reproving its glance! I have died for you, Jesus says. For you I poured out my heart's blood, and can you, in view of love like mine, thus grieve and wound and deny me?"

It was a look of painful remembrance, and the Lord turned and looked upon Peter. And Peter remembered the word of the Lord. His Lord's solemn prediction of his sin he seemed quite to have forgotten. But when that look met his eye, it summoned back to memory the faded recollections of the faithful and tender admonitions that had forewarned him of his fall.

There is a tendency in our fallen minds to forget our sinful departures from God. David's threefold backsliding seemed to have been lost in deep oblivion until the Lord sent his prophet, to recall it to his memory. Christ will bring our forgotten departures to view, not to abrade or to condemn, but to humble us, and to bring us afresh to the blood of sprinkling.

The heart-searching look from Christ turns over each leaf in the Book of Memory, and sins and follies, inconsistencies and departures, there inscribed, but long forgotten, are read and re-read to the deep sin-loathing and self-abasement of our souls. Ah, let a look of forgiving love penetrate your soul, illumining memory's dark cell, and how many things and circumstances and steps in your past life will you recollect to your deepest humiliation before God!

How much do we need thus to be reminded of our admonitions, our warnings, and our falls, that we may in all our future spirit and conduct walk humbly with God? The season of solitude and sorrow is favorable for this. It is a time of recollection. The past is recalled. The life is reviewed. principles, motives, and actions are examined, scrutinized, and weighed, and the result, if the process is fairly and honestly gone into, will be, Lord, I do remember this day, my sin and folly. Pardon it, for your name's sake, and do remember it no more.

It was a look of gentle reproof. It seemed to convey that reproof in language like this. I am now bearing your sin and curse. I am about to drink the cup of woe for you, to take you, a poor, lost, condemned sinner, into my very bleeding heart. And do you deny that you did ever know me? Can you inflict another and a deeper wound? Can you add another and a keener pang? to those now falling, like a storm, upon me from my enemies, deriding and scorning and rejecting me. Oh, what a reproof was that look! It was indeed tender, but its very tenderness made it all the more keen.

Blessed Jesus, we love you for all the reproofs of your eye. reproofs most deserved, most searching. We have met your look in secret, in solitude and in sorrow it has spoken to us, revealing our sin and your displeasure, and we bless you for that look.

It was a look of full forgiveness. Who can doubt but that, at this moment, Jesus, by His blessed Spirit, did secretly write upon the heart of his backsliding disciple the free pardon of his sin. And such is ever the look of Christ to us, be it a look expressive of wounded love, be it a look of mournful remembrance, or be it a look of searching reproof, it yet is always a look of most free and full forgiveness.

I have pardoned, is its language. And this is the meaning of Christ's look now penetrating the dark cloud of your heart's grief, suffering believer. It may revive the recollection of past offenses. It may search and rebuke and alarm. Yet, beware of interpreting it, all of displeasure. It is a look of loving forgiveness.

the sharpest reproof the look of Christ ever conveyed to a believer, spoke of pardoned sin. It must be so, since the covenant of peace provides, and the atonement of Jesus secures, the entire counseling of all his sin. Meet the eye of Jesus, then, with confidence and love.

There may be self-reproach in your conscience, There is no harsh reproach in his look. The uplifted glance of your eye may be sin-repenting. The downward beaming of his is sin-forgiving. O, press to your heart the consolation and joy of this truth. The glance of Jesus falling upon his accepted child ever speaks of pardoned sin. Chastened, sorrowful, and secluded you may be, yet your sins are forgiven you for His name's sake.

O, I know not a truth more calculated to light up the gloom of a lone chamber, to lift up the drooping spirit of a heart-sick child of God, than the announcement that God, for Christ's sake, has pardoned all His transgressions and His sins. and stands to him in the relation of a reconciled father.

Suffering child of God, with this divine declaration would I come to you in your sorrow and seclusion. O Israel, you shall not be forgotten of me. I have blotted out, as a thick cloud, your transgressions, and, as a cloud, your sins. Return unto me, for I have redeemed you.

O that the Spirit, the Comforter, may sweeten your solitude and cheer your gloom, and give you this song to sing in the night season of your grief. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction, and crowns you with loving-kindness and tender mercies.

Forget not that the look of Christ is ever to His saints a look of pardoning love.

The posture of Jesus, when He looked upon His sinning disciple, was most expressive. The Lord turned. Here was the first step of recovery taken on the part of Christ. And what has all the restoring conduct of our Lord been towards us, but just this, turning to us, when we had turned from Him? We have wandered. He has gone after us. We have departed. He has pursued us. We have stumbled. He has upheld us. We have fallen. He has raised us up again. We have turned from Him. He has turned toward us. O the wonderful love and patience of Christ!

And what is still His language, speaking to us in that look? Return unto Me, for I have redeemed you. And what should be the response of our hearts? We come unto you, for you are the Lord our God. Then let us search and try our ways and turn again unto the Lord. Yes, again. What? After all my backslidings and recoveries, my departures and returns, may I turn again to the Lord? Yes, with confidence we say it. Turn again unto the Lord. that look of love, beaming from the eye of Jesus, invites you, woos you, to return again, yes, this once more, to the shelter of his pierced side, to the home of his wounded heart. And oh, how acute the sorrow awakened by a look from Christ! Peter went out, and wept bitterly. How melting is the look of wounded love! A father's eye, beaming with tenderness upon a rebellious, wandering child! Inviting, welcoming his return! What adamant heart can resist it?

Peter's sorrow, too, was solitary. He went out from the high-priest's hall, and sought some lone place to weep. Ah, the deepest, bitterest, truest grief for sin is felt and expressed beneath God's eye alone. When the wakeful pillow of midnight is moistened, when the heart unveils in secret to the eye of Jesus, when the chamber of privacy witnesses to the confidential confessions and moanings and pleadings of a wandering heart, There is then felt and expressed a sorrow for sin so genuine, so delicate, and so touching, as cannot but draw down upon the soul a look from Christ, the most tender in its expression, and the most forgiving in its language.

And what shall be the one practical lesson we draw from this subject? Even this. Let us always endeavor to realize the loving eye of Jesus resting upon us, in public and in private, in our temporal and spiritual callings, in prosperity and in adversity, in all places and on all occasions and under all circumstances. Oh, let us live as beneath its focal power.

When our Lord gave this look to Peter, his eyes were dim with grief. But now that he is in heaven, they are as a flame of fire. To his saints, not a burning, withering, consuming flame, but a flame of inextinguishable love. Deem not yourself, then, secluded believer, a banished and an exiled one, lost to all sight. other eyes may be withdrawn and closed, distance intercepting their view, death darkening their vision. But the eye of Jesus, your Lord, rests upon you always in ineffable delight, and with unslumbering affection.

I will guide you with my eye, is the gracious promise of your God. Be ever and intently gazing on that eye. looking unto Jesus. He is the fountain of light, and in the light radiating from His eye, you shall, in the gloomiest hour of your life, see light upon your onward way. By His light I walked through the darkness. We all, with open face, beholding, as in a glass, the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.

This concludes A Look from Christ by Octavius Winslow.